things go better

week 
of 
ups
downs

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going in two directions at once
sideways

there was the cleaning lady
she works for the building 
comes round 
every morning to spot clean 
the real work
 is 
done at night 
after we leave 
Hilda
 is her name 
she's been cleaning for us 
as long as I've worked here
 going on 12 years 
she calls me 
Carol 
I have told her 
many times 
my 
name
 is 
Daryl  

Monday 
she came to me 
to tell me 
about
 something 
that wasn't where it should be

 Carol 
she said 
I cant find 
the 
whateveritwasshewaslookingforIforget  

I said
 my name
 is 
not 
Carol
 to be honest
I usually ignore 
her inability to remember my name 
because 
occasionally 
I suffer the same problem 
but 
Monday morning
 well

she giggled 
seriously
 she 
giggled

 Oh I know I call you Carol does it bother you? 

Well 
yes it does

  No giggling now 
BIG eyes

OH I'm sorry Ca .. Daryl 

Now 
of course 
I feel 
a little bad
 not bad enough to say 
okay you can call me Carol  
Nope  
I just smile and leave the pantry

Then there is Rose  
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My sweet baby 
has 
chronic kidney disease 
related anemia 
and 
now 
a form of pink eye
 brought on by stress 
really 
stress
 no kidding
 do you think
 a little barely over 6 lb cat
 who has had
 one thing 
after 
the other 
happen to her
 over the last going on 3 years
 is 
stressed?  

She lost Gus 
she had a week long in-hospital thyroid treatment 
she had ringworm 
she had dental surgery
 she's had several bouts of pancreatitis 
the most recent 
pushed her over the cusp
into
full blown chronic kidney disease

for the pink eye
 we added 
2X a day eye salve 
to her
 daily 
50ml subQ hydration 
which 
she 
detests

stress? 
ya think? 

how about the stress
 it adds to our lives
 to Toonman and me 
we never fight
 sure
 occasionally 
I get in a snit
 over something 
but 
we
 don't 
fight  

we don't

 well
 come by any evening
 when we do her hydration
 measure
 the tension
 in the room
 OMG
 insane 
Toonman holds her on his lap
 petting her 
calming her
 while 
jab a needle
 into her upper back 
she flinches
 I jump 
every
 night

 Toonman tells me 
every 
night 
how I am doing it 
wrong
it makes me crazy
 its not as if I am enjoying this

 well 
the other night
 I said 
stop 
telling me how wrong
 I do it 
stop 
making me feel
 worse
 do it yourself 
and 
he did
 in one simple motion 
and 
she never flinched 
GAH 
 then what happened?
 He
 apologized
 to
 me
 to me
 he 
apologized
 I am the bitch 
I am the raging loon
 and
 he apologized to me 
I love that man

after a brief chat with the vet last nite 
Rose is on 
X A N A X 
 yup
 a quarter of a 0.25MG dose 
because 
seriously
everything
 we do to help her 
stresses her out 
so we need to
unstress
 her

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Phew
 that was 
some 
long blather 
I should have said
 go get a coke 
after all things go better 
with coke

oh one last thing!
dont forget
 this weekend
 its time
to set the clocks
ahead
one hour
on
Saturday night
why am I reminding you now?
'cause I feel like it