oops and other riffs
Standin' on the corner waiting for the light to change
Lookin' up lookin' all around me
Seein' it reflected back
Reachin' for the camera,
Diggin' in the purse,
its here
somewhere
OOPS
it went flying up out of my hand
bounce
bounce
OH NO
Wait . its okay.
A close call.
On the way home on the subway the lights in the car went off
not completely
It triggered memories of when I was a kid
the seats on the subway were made of what felt like straw
Not sitting but on my knees looking out the window
seeing myself reflected
the sound of the subway car on the tracks seemed so loud
I would sing,
sing out loud
loudly
thinking no one could hear me
for the clack clack clack
Not unlike the day I spent with Leslie
Her mom called: Leslie come here!
the radio played a song I knew
I sang along out loud
loudly
Leslie came back
she
said
you sing funny
Sing? I wasnt singing.
I heard you.
No, it wasn't me.
Reflexive lying.
A habit broken
I still sing
badly
trust me if you heard me
you'd turn the volume up
drown me out